Lost!

Yeah, it's goofy, but I'm doing it anyway - I'm posting lyrics to a favorite song.

These lyrics resonate with me in many of the same way running does.

(Coldplay - Lost!)

Just because I'm losing
Doesn't mean I'm lost
Doesn't mean I'll stop
Doesn't mean I would cross

Just because I'm hurting
Doesn't mean I'm hurt
Doesn't mean I didn't get
What I deserved
No better and no worse

I just got lost
Every river that I tried to cross
Every door I ever tried was locked
Ohhh and I'm...
Just waiting 'til the shine wears off

You might be a big fish
In a little pond
Doesn't mean you've won
Cause along may come
A bigger one

And you'll be lost
Every river that you tried to cross
Every gun you ever held went off
Ohhh and I'm...
Just waiting until the firing stopped
Ohhh and I'm...
Just waiting 'til the shine wears off


I'm
Just waiting 'til the shine wears off
Ohhh and I..
Just waiting 'til the shine wears off

Running is a beautifully competitive sport. You are always chasing a rabbit, but the one you ultimately compete against is yourself. That's one of the many places life and running intersect for me.

Many times I've caught that rabbit. Once you catch it, the fulfillment is gone. The fun was in the chase. It's an equation that can set you up for a lifetime of despair or for a lifetime of self improvement. Yeah, getting that rabbit doesn't fill that need, but that's ok because the need is to get better. And there is always room for better.

So, I'm smitten with myself tonight. Comparing my mile times this afternoon to a few months ago. I'm a big fish in my own little pond.

The shine will soon wear off, but I'm appreciating it for now. And I'm appreciating my knee for magically healing enough for me to run 4.5 miles with 800-meter repeats of 7 mph (3 of them!). I actually feel better tonight than I did last night.

Loving my little pond.